When does a breakthrough feel like a breakdown?
A breakthrough always feels like a breakdown. A breakthrough by definition means to break through something; to get to the other side of a challenge suddenly. And to get there you need to dismantle what ever is blocking you and that "what ever" is usually you.
Prior to a breakthrough, as in any scientist's quest for a needed discovery, there are moments of doubt, there's a knowing that something is missing...something you sense is right in front of you, and there is this urgent need to go back to the beginning...to retrace your steps.
Ahh! Retracing your steps. Sounds like therapy. Well, no. Retracing your steps, if you look at yourself as a scientist would, is to take a look at the patterns, the hypotheses that got you where you are. And where you are is not where you want to be. (I'm urging you right now, yes, right now, to stop reading and pick up Dr. Seuss's book, Oh, The Places You'll Go. Because it's time to take note. It's time to see that right now in this space and time when you have this sensation, you're in (hint: not in the Slump) The Waiting Place.
The Waiting Place is the place of indecision.
The Waiting Place is the place of hesitation.
The Waiting Place is the place of shoulda, coulda, woulda.
The Waiting Place is the place of fear.
And as Dr. Seuss says so eloquently and yet so simply that even I can understand the first time round,
"...or a Better Break
or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.
That's not for you!
Somehow you'll escape
all that waiting and staying
you'll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing."
And that somehow is your very own breakthrough disguised as your very own breakdown. Only you can go there and only you can find you're way out. My job...to hold your hand. xo, j
P.S. My son says that not every breakdown is a moment of breakthrough. I beg to differ. It only becomes defined as a breakdown when you decide not to step through and fear takes hold and you want to go back. Go back to where? The Waiting Place?