Mindfulness is about being fully awake in our lives. It is about perceiving the exquisite vividness of each moment. We feel more alive. We also gain immediate access to our own powerful inner resources for insight, transformation, and healing. ~Jon Kabat-Zinn, Ph.D.
Four years ago I had a craving, a thirst, a real nagging that I needed to become a a certified mindfulness teacher. The first step in the process required going to an 8-week program offered by the University of Massachusetts Medical School Center for Mindfulness called the Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction Program. At the time I just couldn’t fathom how on earth I would be able to be away from my family for eight weeks-even if it were in small stretches of time or in one fell swoop. So the thought like all thoughts that aren’t worked and reworked on became a dusty manual in the back drawer of my mind. I totally forgot about it, really, it completely vacated my consciousness. At the same time I had a dream about white sandy beaches and a red lighthouse-all of which I completely ignored. Our dreams do tell us what we need to do either as symbols or sometimes it knows we are just that dense that we need it straightforward. That was me.
And then as you know I split up with Mike and was waffling back and forth about where to live. Was I supposed to stay in Connecticut? Go to San Diego? Move to Florida?
So I did what I do best. I tried out different scenarios in my mind to see if it resonated with me. That required actually telling myself that this was the decision I was making.
And then…I sat still. And I sat still. And sat still some more. Until I thought that I had gone out of my mind. Where was the answer? I did the mirror work and asked my future self where was I supposed to be. She told me that I was in Palm Beach. So that was that. I’m moving to the Palm Beach area. But when I got there the places weren’t quite right and then in meditation I was told to go to Jupiter. I had never been to Jupiter and didn’t go. I went as far as Juno Beach.
When I returned to Connecticut. I looked at real estate and found a house in Jupiter that I had my mom go see and I rented it sight unseen. I got there and yes, this was the place. And then I saw the red lighthouse and the white sandy beaches. Message received. Wait but there's more to receive.
Fast forward from April to 2 weeks ago when I picked up the mail and as usual the Jupiter paper was in there. I sometimes read it but most of the time I toss it. Not really sure why but I do. This time though I couldn’t toss it and every time I walked by it I felt I needed to open it because there was something really important in there. So I fought with myself for a couple of days and then finally gave up and opened the paper. And on the page I opened was an announcement that Jupiter Medical Center had joined with the University of Massachusetts Medical School Center for Mindfulness and was now offering the 8-week class here in Jupiter. I knew it was for me. I went to the orientation and everyone had a somewhat similar story of coincidence and synchronicity of how they came to register for the class. There are only 150 teachers in the world and I am aspiring to be added to that list.
Oh yeah, one more funny synchronicity. Red had to go and get a second physical. This one for his sport, the last one for school-which we did in May. We went back to the same place and I remembered when I stood at the reception desk that in May there had been a flyer about mindfulness and an upcoming course. I had ignored it then but it had stayed tucked away for the moment I was ready. The Universe does give us signs, all the time. It’s up to us to see them and know what they are. We get closer to the clues through meditation and mindfulness. This stuff is life changing, I know. How was I to know that taking a risk and leaving it all behind, stepping into the unknown and going where Spirit (the Universe and Spirit are one and the same) guides me to go would bring me here. It knew. But I didn't. I was told. And how did this happen? Four years ago a man in Jupiter took the course and just knew it had to come to Jupiter and he funded every effort to get it here and here it is…and so am I. Wow freaky, right?